About Me
I never thought much about finding a spiritual path until I gave up alcohol in 1985 at age 38. Up until then, the only spirit I was interested in came out of a bottle and I was living that spiritual path to the full. There was nothing to think about, just get on with it, because as they say, “it’s the journey not the destination”. And this certainly applied to me, wherein I had no idea of any destination nor any care, because wherever it was I was going, I having a ball along the way. The trouble, like all journeys, if you don’t know where you’re going you could end up in the middle of a war zone and get your head blown off. 
Fortunately though, I realised the journey was leading me into a danger zone before I came to the front line and got seriously or mortally wounded, just in time to gather my wits and backtrack out of there. Inevitably, I came to realise that travelling on without knowing where I was going was pretty dangerous and had to stop. But rest assured I wasn’t about to stop travelling, but just to determine a suitable destination before setting off again.
This took about ten years before I finally realised what the perfect destination would be for me, aka, the Kingdom of Heaven. And it culminated one night just after I’d gone to bed and began my routine of envisioning a list of ten goals I wanted to achieve. All of them egocentric. I was just starting into number five when the whole list was suddenly usurped to morph into one all-encompassing spiritually-oriented precept, made up of three discernible parts. It was like a rug being pulled from underneath my own belief system and leaving me “flat on my back” in the aftermath, wondering about the cause and the consequences behind it. But at the same time, it was like a breath of fresh air, where I knew right then that it all made sense and was exactly what I’d been instinctively looking for, without cognitively realising it before. So I undertook this in the context of my new journey, and immediately began to recite that precept exactly as it had come to me. That was in 1994 and I have never had any reason whatsoever to alter one single syllable of it to this day, as in, 2020. And as the precept came to me in the form of a prayer, it was an easy transition from verbalising my ten material goals to rendering a unified prayerful oration every night.
So from that moment on I started out on my new-found true spiritual path, and have witnessed the destination becoming closer and closer over the years. For the past twenty-five years it’s been a combination of “the journey and the destination”.
Mission Objective
To invert my awareness from the world in the front and God in the back
This is not natural or easy for us because the world is incessantly in our face, requiring our having to retrain our focus towards having God in our face, just like animals do. Their primary awareness is imbued in their God (nature), along with a back-of-the-mind world awareness, to facilitate their survival. In other words, everything they do is predicated through deference to nature, which filters accordingly into their back-of-the-mind awareness for survival. So the main difference between animals and humans, is that they have a primary awareness of God, complimented by an awareness of the world, while we are primarily focused on the world and complimentarily aware of God. And essentially by choice one must add.
As Jesus stressed, “That your charitable deed may be in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will Himself reward you openly.” And, “When you pray, go into your room, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in the secret place; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly.”
In other words, do everything towards appealing to God rather than appealing to the world, because making yourself somebody in the eyes of humanity is narcissistic and only gratifies the ego self, which really means, that in your appeal to the world you are really just appealing to yourself. It’s totally futile in every sense other than massaging your ego, which implies that you have a sense of yourself as deficient, and require constant reassurance. 
Unfortunately, the world invokes that feeling of deficiency in all of us because we see ourselves in the context of others, rather than our innate selves. Most everything we do is predicated on what others do, who in turn, do what we do. So no one is really ever themselves, but only what they think themselves to be, based on how other’s are and how they think other’s would like them to be. It’s all bullshit.
Appealing to the world may give you a leg up in society, and elevate your whimsical self-esteem, but is an impediment to the Kingdom of God. If you’re okay with that so be it, but you should realise you are ingratiating yourself in delusion rather than Truth. Or to put it bluntly, you are a deluded simpleton, which most of humanity seem perfectly okay with.
Anyone, which is pretty much everyone, deserves everything they get good or bad, because living in a constant state of misconception makes it impossible to know what is what and what one should be doing, other than by winging it. That’s right, life in deference to the world is a life of winging it, not based on Truth, but on consummating a belief system to support a lie as it appeals to them.